This past Thursday, the 25th of July, 2019, my beloved bun, Apollo, passed away. He was in my life for only a few years, but he was the most important, wonderful, perfect pet I've ever had. Years ago, I was suffering from a very intense bout of depression. I decided I needed someone to take care of, and a bun seemed like just the ticket. When I found Apollo, I instantly knew that he was the companion for me. From his wide brown eyes to his short little ears, he was absolutely flawless. His presence relaxed me, and the way he hopped and raced around my feet put a smile on my face even when I didn't think I was capable of smiling. He helped pull me from my depressive hole and brought me back to stability. Having someone to take care of made me take better care of myself. Over time, he helped me to be happy again. His tiny, round, adorable face and his excitement for the small, intimate things in life gave me an appreciation for my own life that I hadn't previously had. His passing has been the hardest loss I've ever experienced. Even now, I sometimes forget that he's gone, and I expect to see his excited eyes and tiny paws up on the side of the cage when I enter my bedroom. Each time I realize he is no longer there, my heart breaks again. It hasn't gotten easier yet, but I hope that my pain will lessen over time. The last few days have been some of the darkest in a long while. Fortunately, when things are at their worst, I have a place I can go to hide from the things I wish had never happened. Writing gives me the chance to escape from things that I can't deal with in the moment and allows me to live in a world that makes sense. It's summer, which means I have a lot of free time. Free time also means time to think. If I'm not working on a project, all I can think about is the loss of my bun. Through books and writing stories, I can keep my mind off that subject for at least a few hours a day. As a result, I've been coming up with some new ideas for writing projects I can post here on my blog. I'm going to start writing a series of creative nonfiction essays called Snapshots. These short works will be snippets of my life, which I've been able to reflect on and gather meaning from. Additionally, I'm going to start a series called Dreamscapes. These fictional works will be created from dreams that I remember from the distant and recent past. I'll attempt to make a story from my dream, or at least what I remember, and in the process, I may be able to make some meaning out of my dreams as well. Loss is painful, and it takes time to overcome the squall of feelings which accompany it. However, the only way to feel normal is to do things you'd typically do. It can help you to work your way toward acceptance of the things you cannot change. My approach is through writing and reading books, but any art, passion or hobby would likely help. I've been doing my best to remember that my bun, who has brought me so much happiness, wouldn't want me to live my life in depression. He would want me to be happy, the way we were while he was here in this physical world by my side. Now that he's on my shoulder - a round and fluffy little angel - I know he's hoping that all his work, and all the joy he taught me to have, won't be undone. I'll keep distracted for him. Hopefully, someday, I'll be able to be happy on my own again.
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With my first year in University complete, and my summer break in full swing, writing and creating are at the forefront of my mind. I love having this time to catch up on my personal projects. It gives me all the time I need to mull over new ideas and reinvent old ones.
The last few months have been wonderful, creatively speaking. The website www.canadiancarma.ca has been publishing my poetry weekly for a number of weeks, and I'm so excited to have my work out there in the public eye. Earning a bit of money at the same time didn't hurt either. Now that my time with them has passed, I'm working on some short stories that I plan to submit to other publications. It's a wonderful time to live my creative life to the fullest. There is no time like the present to chase and achieve your dreams. Tru Summer is here now and I'm gearing up for vacation, but that doesn't mean I've been slacking on writing. Many different stories are in the works, and I even have some that are completed and ready to be published. Today I'm going to be posting a short story, the first short story to ever grace the pages of this blog, and I'm so excited for people to finally be able to read it. If you do check it out, make sure to leave a comment and let me know what you liked or didn't like about it. Feedback is the only way us writers can get better, besides good old fashioned trial and error, practice, and passion.
Hope your summer is going awesome, can't wait to see you here again. Tru//xo It's the end of May, and time is passing faster every week.
This is the month that I apply to my new school program and take the next step in my education. I couldn't be more excited or more terrified. (Terrified in a good way.) It's going to be a long and winding road to my degree, but it's not a real sacrifice if you're enjoying what you're doing. Recently I have been writing poetry again, so I've posted a poem here on the blog for anyone to read. There is more to come, but working on my short story and my novel have definitely been my priorities. I'm considering writing another short story just for the blog, but I can't post the one I'm currently working on, since I plan to sell it for publication in a journal. There are also some ideas tumbling around in my head for a fictional blog series set in a fantasy world, starring a recently created character that I have fallen in love with. So, once I've finished the story I'm working on, I'm going to get out a few good pieces before school starts and I'm buried under a pile of work. Tru//xo Hey hey, Readers!
It's a new week and I'm excited to share a lot of the things I have on the go at the moment. It's fun creating things in general, but it's a little more exciting when you have someone to share it with. One of the more interesting things I've created this week is an awesome short story about the days of the week personified. After I edit that up a bit, I'll be posting it as my first short story in my Creative Fiction Section. Last week I didn't get around to posting a YouTube video, but I'm in the process of editing that and it should be going up within a few days. Another update is that I made a nice big purchase from BookOutlet.ca and I can't wait to share the book babies that are on their way. Follow me on Insagram @trulyhuntercreative to get updates about that. This week I have been musing on a few different writing ideas and it seems to me that there are kernels of wisdom about writing nearly everywhere you look in the world. From the ways strangers interact on the streets, to the dreams that come to you when you're deep asleep, it's incredible how much insight you can get into storytelling when you keep your eyes open and look for it. At this point in my life, it's my habit to think like a writer and auto-analyze everything that happens as if it's material for my next story. But it seems to me that perhaps not everybody thinks that way, and so I'd like to encourage any writers and aspiring authors to start doing this if they don't already. One of the ways you can practice this is by carrying around a notebook, or even using the note taker on your smart phone, to start writing down anything you see that catches your eye. Anything can be material for a story, from an interaction between a scolding mother and her fussy child, to a woman dressed in colourful patchwork clothing, there's always a story behind any experience. When you witness something interesting, try to think of a story to explain that something. Think about why it's happening or what might happen afterward, and write it down. This way, your mind is always thinking about stories and possibilities; you've got so much more material to be inspired by. Stories have always been my primary means of relating to the world, so this method can also be helpful if you are confused by a situation or experience. Perhaps someone said or did something to you and you can't for the life of you understand their perspective. Try writing a story about it, dissecting their behavior, and giving a reason or motivation to their character's decisions. Even if you're not spot on with the real motivation behind that person's behavior, it might give you some insight into the way you relate to them in real life. This could also allow you to work out some internal frustration as you create a story around your experience. So, that's my Musings & Updates Blog for this week, I hope you enjoyed reading it. If you have any insight into gathering stories from the real world to use in your fiction, comment about it down below. Let's start a conversation and share our ideas. As always, read on, Readers. Tru~xoxoxo Hey, blog lover!
What's new with you? Things have been continuing on at their crazy speeds and through all the jumbled chaos it's been difficult to master my time management skill. But if things stay at the slightly less blinding pace they've been settling into the past few days, I stand to actually catch my breath in the next week or so. Despite the stress and anxiety that accompanies being busy, at least I know I can face a challenge head on, and I suppose that's what matters in the long game. My writing has been coming along quite nicely and I'm excited to report that I have finished the first draft of my structured outline and am well into creating the universe for my latest novel. Falling in love with these characters and this story has been filling my heart to the brim with happiness and it makes the late nights worth the lost sleep. It's going to be a wild ride to get to the end of this job, to complete my novel and publish my first self-published novel, I'm just as excited as I am scared. This past week there has been a lot of people ill around me, and I was fighting a cold myself, so it's been some time since my last YouTube video. My target is set to get back to two videos a week starting next week at the latest, so wish for my aim to be true (haha, 'tru') and my arrow to fly straight. Target number two? Read more books in September than I did in August. My reading goal is as little as 3 and as many as 5; what's your goal for this month? Have you challenged the Good Reads Reading Challenge? Let me know below what your reading goals are and we can talk books. Until then, read on! Tru~ xoxoxo Hey, blog lovers!
This week is setting up to be a great one for this blog and for my YouTube channel. Not only did I start a new and exciting Let's Play, I'm also writing a new movie review that I can't wait to share. Life has been a lot better now that I am working on what I love; and I thought I'd update you on all the projects I have planned for the next few weeks. This week's Let's Plays will be focused on my new Skyrim Season One episodes. This LP is heavily focused on Role-Playing and getting right into the world of Skyrim as if it were real life. I've really enjoyed recording this kind of content, I hope others enjoy watching it as much as I enjoyed creating it. My movie review blog post won't be the only new piece of writing on my site in the next couple of weeks. I'm also planning to blog a book haul and some reading recommendations while I search for some nerd blog sites where I can do some guest blogging. Aside from site updates, life is going pretty well lately. I've been working on creations I'm passionate about and it's taking me deeper into myself as well as allowing me to connect more deeply with others. I can't stress enough how important it is to make sure you're doing what you love to do, even if you're not making money at it. Because money comes as a direct result of how much effort you're willing to put into what you're doing. And what's easier to put effort into than something you love to do? So start that passion project as soon as you can, because there's nothing that makes a person happier than igniting the passion inside and showing everyone what you're made of. Keep on reading, Tru~ xoxoxo Big things are happening on the blog this week, I am having so much fun brainstorming and putting plans into action. Recently I posted my Nerdy Faves for July and there will be another blog coming at the end of this week. YouTube videos have also been recorded and the next part of my Sims 4 Let's Play should be up Wednesday the 3rd. Actually, I have so many ideas for YouTube Gaming content that I want to start recording. Fallout 4, Skyrim, some visual novels, and even some browser games are in the works for Let's Play content.
In other news, I'm going to start creating Podcasts! I'm interested in creating Nerdy podcast content of all different kinds, and I can't wait to start uploading some of the ideas I've been coming up with. Another new development is my persuit of blog touring, that is to say that I want to blog on other people's websites and have them come here and blog on mine as well! I can't wait to get that started and it will be so much fun to experience writing for someone else's blog and creating new relationships with other people in the blog community. That's my update for this week guys, but stay and hang out a while! Click down below to view some recent blogs, and as always, read on. Tru~ xoxoxo
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What?The ramblings of a writer with her head in the clouds. When?
July 2019
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